Dear dear, if you are still passing by occasionally, I know I haven t post lately... well since last month, but i was in a shitty mood... well i m still... but today even though it s raining I m feeling like posting :)
Doblin has been more or less lucky lately since exceptionally it seems that we have a kind of summer this year... very true ladies and gentlemen... my nose can prove it from its presently pale red color :)
So recently, two of my dear french colleagues left ... snif snif.... sad was 'La Bastille' which lost 2 of its great contributors ;( but the good news is they are living happely ever after, in a better place, with better food, better job, better weather and better pay... so we wish them best of luck *hoping this could happen to me too :P* To celebrate their success we obviously did a leaving party for Seb:


And Julie :)


And since the weather was awesome I also went to see the Street Performance World Championship with some crazy dudes specially one very flexible and damn crazy :)


This week, I went to a team event at Herbert Park, under a crazy sun!!! True, very true and here the video to prove you we got a sunny day, if u are hearing an annoying laugh or a crazy woman yelling wid a french accent .... that would be me... sorry :(



Now, yesterday I saw the Gay Pride and this time finally it was sunny, my god I remembered last year it was raining like hell, so today people were happy, and celebrating, the organization was great, and the music awesome!


Then I went to see the movie The Hangover and it was bloody hilarious, it s been 3 weeks the movie is out and still the room was fully booked!


It was great to laugh that much, then I went to the Church to drink a Corona with fresh lime, yes, we have a bar here in Doblin called the Church.... y? because it used to be a church before, and even though now it s does not look like a Church there is still piano organ on the last floor, but since it was still nice and bright at 9.30PM (the sun goes to sleep after 10PM.... which is awesome) we stayed outside to enjoy every minute of a nice day!
Today I was recruited to perform a braids hairstyle on my friend Burak :) he has long hair so it took us... yeah we were 2, 2h30 min to make his hair, and gladly he is happy about it :P


After that, to thanks us for all the effort we did, he cooked a turkish diner for us with meat ball, tomatoes, potatoes, and special rice and brown pasta .... so good my friends!... so too finish the day he made us a Turkish coffee where the actual powder of the coffee is left in the cup, yeah, it takes time to get use to it, personally when i started to get the powder in my mouth...



it gaves me goose pump, anyway, his friend read my future in the left over coffee. Yes, when u re done with the coffee, u turn the cup upside down on the small plate and then u wait till it s cold, then u take the cup and u start reading. So according to my cup of coffee, I am carrying a lot of shit in my back at the moment * to be frank that does not surprise me and that is one of the reason y i m pretty rare on my blog at the moment* BUT *drum roll* a white way it s coming *free problem road? really? is it possible?* with eventually a small bump on that road *haven t figure it out yet.... what the bump means* and at the end of that road, 2 people facing each other * could it be me and my future rich and handsome hubby?* with a fish tail * apparently the fish represents a good sign, we can only see the tail.... is it still a good sign? at least a tiny one? * So when the reading is done, we took the small plate where all the left over coffee went and we let the coffee fell down to the cup again and this time read the plate, and as u can see on the pic...



it seems there is lots of people on my plate *could it be Indian people which means that i ll go back to India soon? or maybe my family wid my dad in the middle ... the one with the grumpy face?* mmmm for that I don t know, but I hope that the remaining 6 months that are coming before i m turning..... a certain age... will bring me to that white and free-problem path :P
Ok that s it for me, have a good week ahead for those who re passing by :P take care!
C.
Quote of the week: A diplomat is someone who can tell you to go to hell in such a way that you will look forward to the trip.

So what happened, since I went back from India, after my actual depressing mood (which occasionally come back hitting me every time i m talking to one of my India friends complaining about the hot weather when the only thing i can see through my windows is rain....rain..rain... if at least it could rain men...)

I took on a challenge, I had to broke up with my 10 years old long time relationship with my boyfriend aka my 'extra kilos' yes this is my longest relationship, not with a human well yeah a part of a human actually a part of me.


Thanks to the hot and humid Indian weather and the spicy food I lost weight by obligation, I must say it is quite challenging now, since the weather is no longer hot and humid, and the food is bland again more than that i m surrounded by junk food. I m going 3 times a week to the gym, that s even a bigger challenge since the last time I put a feet in the gym was a year ago :) but i must say that i m still doin it, i haven t loose hope at least for now...


Tomorrow i m going to meet a coach, the first time he talked to me he scares the shit of me...
'ARE U serious?' (with a deep military voice)
'erm yeah i guess'
' ok so waht are we gonna do is a first assessment, i m gonna weight ur fat mass, ur weight mass [blabla blabla bla] then a second assessement regarding ur eating higiene....ARE U REALLY sure u re serious?'
'SIR YES SIR' ok i did not reply like that but i really feel like doin so... so hopefully it will help me fighting the scale :)

As for the rest, even if know i m living with a great guy in a great flat, It will be
4 years since i m living in Ireland and to be frank with you it is time for me to move on... nothing has been planned yet... and due to the actual crisis it might take a while but it s on the back of my mind and hopefully by the end of the year things will change :)
Other than that i m trying to keep myself occupy by going to the gym, to the toastmasters, by the way I am officially a Competent Toastmaster, I completed my final stage 'Inspire your audience' ( I past my speech at the end of the post if you fancy reading it :P ), I m trying to see my friends as much as I can.

The following part of the post is rated 'Adult content' if you re not comfortable with your body or don t want to talk about it, skip the pinkish part:


I went to see a play yesterday called 'The Vagina Monologues' with 4 girls and a very courageous man :P I was very interesting, u can learn quite a few things and I m planning on buying the book from Eve Ensler who interviewed not less than 200 hundred women from every age about their views on sex, relationships, sexual parts and also violence against women.
It was funny, sometimes sad, and very interesting. Some acts as monologues were hilarious, you had this girl who called herself a 'Moaner' and interpret the different types of orgasms women can have I particularly like the 'catholic one' and the 'doggy style one' or this woman who acted as a 77 years old woman who never look at her vagina nor call it like that but instead her 'down there' or this woman who had to give name her body parts :P... I m leaving you with this quote from the Director of the play 'Vagina should be adored not hidden away....'

Tonight i m going to the Havana cafe listen to some cuban music with food wid friends :)
And saturday morning i m flying for Cork (south of Ireland) to meet my friends and go to the Festnoz (french party from the Brittany region) with crepes and cider :) it is time for me to have some fun :)
I hope you guys are doing great and that you don t miss me too much :P I ll try to pass by your blog asap. In the mean time, take care of yourself.

Speech 10, final stage from The Competent Communicator Toastmaster: Inspire your audience. I got inspired from a speech I found on the internet which I turned into my own story with my own experience and way of thinking :)
It is in your head…

For every action there is a reaction. If you cut your finger with a kitchen knife you might say ‘ouch’ or be more eloquent in terms of swearing words. You might up on the floor thinking you re gonna die because you are loosing an incredible amount of blood… you might also blame your husband because he was the one talking to you while you were cutting that zucchini… or you might was your finger with cold tap water… take again the kitchen knife and cut the rest of that lonely zucchini… You act according to your own personality and have no power to do it differently… or do you?

If someone was giving you 500 euros to change your behavior, would that make a difference? Do you think you would have more power? I think most of us… me first… will quickly learn how to change our emotions if we knew we had something to gain. The fact is, we do have the power to choose our reactions.
It is not what happening to us that makes our lives… but it is the way we react to it. Cutting your finger with a knife is part of the small irritations in your life… how would face a bigger problem? Disease, conflicts, financial problems, death?

Have you heard of someone named Hellen Keller. Helen Keller was born in 1880 and was an American author, political activist and lecturer in the 20th century. Did I mention she contracted an illness when she was 1 and half years old that left her blind and deaf with almost a complete lack of language? However she managed to create with her 6 years old neighbor a simple sign language with her. She later learned Braille and used it not only to read English but also French, German, Greek and Latin. She could have spend her life in an institute and be depressed about her condition and what happened to her but instead she campaigned for women s suffrage, workers right and socialism as well as many other progressives cause. She travelled worldwide raising funds for blind and wrote 12 published books among other great achievements.
On September 1964, the president of USA awarded her the Presidential Medal of Freedom.

We don t have to be the victim of circumstances. We have the power and freedom to make a choice on how we are going to react.
We do not have to be dependant to our emotional reactions. Of course we should not ignore them, when things go wrong we hurt. We re gonna feel pain… anger… frustrations… this is normal. Emotions are a part of us, we need time to process them and work through them.

We know life is not gonna be easy and that we are going to face challenges. But we can mope, cry and become and alcoholic or we can get up and move on to the next phase of our lives. There is no excuse to become an addict, you chose to go to that liquor store and buy the beer.

So how can we choose our reaction? Can we really control our emotions? I believe that our biggest asset is in our head, we have one of the most powerful tool inside our head… our will…
If we set our will in the right direction our emotions will follow behind. I don t say it is going to be easy all the time.
During 10 years I have been fighting to loose weight, and during 10 years I heard my dad saying ‘ if you wanna loose weight you need will’ and during 10 years I told my dad ‘it is easy to say it when you don t have to loose weight’. But then I just spent 3 weeks in India and for whatever reasons maybe the heat or the spicy food I lost weight and when I came back to Dublin I started to go to the gym 3 times a week and try to eat healthier. I have to tell you it s not easy for me… many times I was about to give up … At some point I lost 7 kilos but then gained 2 kg, I felt frustrated and angry at myself. 3 months ago I would have stop tryin right away and I would have probably spend some time with my best friend at that time … I called him The fridge but I built that incredible will and start to talk to myself… ‘listen take your runners and go to the gym instead of complaining you want to loose weight faster… you know it is not gonna happen in 2 weeks’ and instead of grabbing a twix to ease my sorrow I took my runners and went to visit the treadmill to kill some calories.

If you are willing to be happy, you will eventually feel happy. WE only become brave if we are willing to be brave when we are scared.
I choose to loose weight, I know it is going to be challenging but I have the power to make that decision. And with a stronger will my emotional reactions as frustration or anger are getting diminished and eventually with hard work replaceable by energy and positive attitude toward my goal.
So it is up to you. Are you going to be a victim of circumstances, or will you choose how to react.

Will you throw away that kitchen knife or will you use it to shape a stronger you…. You decide....